About 2 weeks ago I went to NYC to see this doctor again. DH and I saw him exactly 9 months prior to conceiving E. I do think that was the tipping point for us. We did continue with some other treatments after seeing him. Those other things no doubt helped, but haven't helped us with another child. So, I went again. Thankfully, my mother came to help out before DH was able to get there and help.
This trip was very difficult. It took us an extra 2 hours to drive to NYC and then I was super stressed driving in Manhattan (thanks to my guardian angel!). The apartment we were going to rent fell through the day before and I had about 2 hours notice to find another one. But I did, thank God.
Some of the treatments were very painful, but I did get through them. I did endure a lecture about I.VF being the best for us, but for obvious reasons we aren't even considering that. Um, hello, we have conceived three times without that! But for the most part I am hopeful that we will have another child but am forcing myself to just pray for peace in whatever outcome the Lord has for our family. At times this is extremely difficult and actually during the trip I could just manage a few Hail Mary's and go to mass on Sunday. So, any prayers that were offered for us really helped sustain us.
We are happy to be home for awhile. I truly appreciate living in the country and not having any issues with traffic, parking, or public transportation. And I am especially thankful for a pro-life OB/GYN practice that never pressures me to do anything anti-life.
Never in my life did I think that it would be this difficult to have children. The extremes that we have had to go surely makes us appreciate the little life we have been given. The Lord knows exactly what I need to seek Him. And for that, too, I am thankful.
I included you and your family in my novena to St. Maximilian Kolbe :)
ReplyDeleteLove you Erin and I have been praying for you and your family. I really hope you find some peace during this time.
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ReplyDeleteYou are such a better person than I am. I am thankful He has used me to help others... But I just cannot get to that point of being joyful that we are being asked to walk through fire with no end in sight. Ugh, I just want a cool lake to jump in, sometimes! With OR without children!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the update, we have been praying! Our specific prayer is that God's will and your desires may align. I will pray that the discomfort passes quickly, too...it's good that you're back in a place where your faith and values are understood! We just found a pro-life family practice doctor who also does prenatal care and childbirth too. He's right around the corner from us, there's a holy water font on the wall as you go in the door, and I had to sign a form saying that I understood he wouldn't prescribe BC. It was the best feeling ever!
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